Lately, my mind has been flooded with worries, and I feel the need to let some of it out. Otherwise, I might just break under the pressure.
What weighs heaviest is my visa situation. It’s ending soon, and I don’t see a clear path forward to stay. It’s terrifying to think that everything I’ve worked so hard for could disappear just like that. I’m not ready to go home yet, not without savings, not without achieving at least one of my goals, like renovating our home to make it more livable and presentable. But I know I can’t do it alone. Financially, I’m drained. I can’t even enjoy small luxuries because every dollar counts, and needs always come before wants now.
There’s also the uncertainty about work. Will I ever find another job as good as this one, with people who are genuinely kind and supportive? If only I could be sponsored then I wouldn’t hesitate to stay. I really like my current company, and leaving it behind would be hard.
Me and my partner talked about moving to a regional area, but that brings its own challenges. We’re not financially prepared for that either. It feels like I’m back at square one, trying to figure everything out all over again and that’s exhausting.
Still, despite all of this, there’s a quiet voice in me that believes things will eventually fall into place. I just have to keep holding on.
I just need to keep believing that everything will work out well.
Nagegets ko ang nararamdaman mo dahil currently yan din ang pinagdadaanan ko. Hindi na rin ako bata kagaya mo at until now, hindi ko pa rin mahanap ang stability sa buhay. These 2025, ang daming nangyaring first time at lahat yun mga heartbreaking events sa buhay ko. Tuwing gaba, umiuyak na lang ako at sa pag-iyak ko, nakakatulog na lang. Pag gising, isip na naman kung paano makakasurvive. Pero still naniniwala pa rin na balang araw, magiging okay din ang lahat. Dasal lang, although it may sound cliché pero yan lang din ang pinanghahawakan ko. Ingat ka palagi Laine. God bless! Kilala mo ako pero di na lang ako magpapakilala hehe. Anyways, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year sa inyo ni Dex! Ingat palagi! ~thebrewedp4nda
ReplyDeleteNagegets ko ang nararamdaman mo dahil currently yan din ang pinagdadaanan ko. Hindi na rin ako bata kagaya mo at until now, hindi ko pa rin mahanap ang stability sa buhay. These 2025, ang daming nangyaring first time at lahat yun mga heartbreaking events sa buhay ko. Tuwing gaba, umiuyak na lang ako at sa pag-iyak ko, nakakatulog na lang. Pag gising, isip na naman kung paano makakasurvive. Pero still naniniwala pa rin na balang araw, magiging okay din ang lahat. Dasal lang, although it may sound cliché pero yan lang din ang pinanghahawakan ko. Ingat ka palagi Laine. God bless! Kilala mo ako pero di na lang ako magpapakilala hehe. Anyways, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year sa inyo ni Dex! Ingat palagi! ~thebrewedp4nda
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