Changes

They say that only constant thing in this world is change! I believe that! you said I changed? Probably! Maybe? But whatever changed in me I am 100% sure that I am still the same me who loves you deeply. You changed too, you know? I don't mind because I will love you for whoever you become. We just need to compromise... 

Ignored

If you say she's important then why ignore her? If you are tired, frustrated or upset let her know. She'll understand. You need space tell her! Don't just ignore her!  She'll get used to it and overtime she will not just care at all...

Starting over

I know you have prayed so hard to forget about me. Wishing that you can just leave everything and move on. Days has passed and heard nothing from you. Then one day, you left a message saying "Can we start again?". You made me the happiest... 

Will always be you

From the moment I wake up, my heart silently cries in pain. Every movement I do, it's you that I see. I know you're miles away but my surrounding reminds me of you! My dreams and our future is fading as it gradually changes into nightmares. I hope and I pray that this is just a bad dream and one day I'll wake up with you by my side. ..

Love?

True love? Don't believe them when they say that it is all butterflies, smiles, glitters, happiness and togetherness. It involves sadness, loneliness, sacrifice and pain. Love is a mix of everything nice and not so nice. It's a two way relationship that is willing to fight for it and make it worth while... 

I hate you not

I am still holding onto your promise that I'll be your last love and that we will always work things together. You'll always be there supporting me on whatever I do.  Now I feel so alone. I hate you so much that I cannot hate you enough not to love you...

Make believe

Don't let someone make believe that you are willing to fight for them. Make it happen! Do not give promises that you cannot keep. Do not believe that one can love you no matter what, they are not the same as you... 

Thank you

Thank you for answering the phone. Thank you for staying at the other line. Thank you that at least I got to see you again. Thank you even if I feel like you still doesn't want to talk to me...

Great pretender

I thought it's true but I guess I'm just pretending that someone can love someone whole heartedly. One will always fall out of love if not one will fall less in love than the other. It can never be the same. It is always unfair in love. You cannot expect that two will be loving the same way after long years of being together...

Foolish

Am I foolish to believe that happy ever after exists? Foolish to believe that one can love unconditionally? Foolish to believe that you love me the same way I love you...

Broken...

It pained me knowing someone can love you only at your best. When he no longer see that person in you, he doesn't love you anymore...

New year, a little update...

I know, I know... I can't keep up with my blogging! I want to apologise to myself for not following up on blogging which I promise myself to do it more often and to those people who take time to read it if there's any. lol.

Anyway, it's already March and I just thought of updating now. So what happened to me? I'll just give a little bit of updates... Last December 2021, I was admitted in hospital for having a bad abdominal/lower pelvic area pain. Just suddenly out of nowhere pain just pop in and I can't do anything. Can't stand up, sit up and not even walk properly. I went to the doctor to have it checked and they didn't allow me to go home as they need a few test to detect what's causing the pain. Over 24 hours stay in the hospital and a few test, they inform me that I got cysts on my ovaries. Yes both ovaries! I got scared thinking it was cancerous but thank God they're not! I got bad case of endometriosis with bad endometrioma that needs to be removed.